survey

89 Things You May Not Have Known About Me

1. What is your favorite drink?

+mocca frapucinno

2. What are you currently listening to?

+ apologize by one republic

3. Who's with you today at home ?

+ my housemates

4. Who was the last person to send you a text message?

+ akimy amin

5. Last time you went to school?

+ erm. . 4 years ago.

6 . Are you happy?

+ im very tensed ryte now.

7 . When was the last time you watched news?

+ just now.

8. What are your plans for tomorrow?

+ i have a presentation to deal with.

9. Do you love sum1?

+ of course, wat a question. haha

11. Want to kick anyone's ass?

+ yeah, miss to kick my boyfie's big ass!

12. What time is it?

+ 12.07 midnite

13. Do you have any expensive jewelry you're wearing right now?

+ na'ah. dun even wear a bra. dah nak tido ok.

14 . YM or MSN

+ YM

16. How many hours on average do you work a week?

+ tak keje pong.

17. Who do you want to hug right now?

+ mohd hisham, nazarel aswad (sesaje gatal), suhaimi (my bf's bestfren, hahaha).

18. Do you watch the Olympics?

+ nope.
not at all

19. Last restaurant you went to?

+ gelas besar, haha

21. Who was the last person to call u?

+ boyfie

22. What's your zodiac sign?

+ cancer

25 . Where do you spend most of your time?

+ bedroom, in front of laptop.

26. Where does most of your relative/ family live?

+ johorr..

34. Collect anything?

+parfum

35. Myspace or Multiply?

+ myspace la. .

36. Do you have mobile phone?

+ yup. norkia

37. Last time you saw your parents?

+ last sunday ;(

43. Ever been to a wedding?

+ yup. and it makes me daydreaming.

44. Where is your cellphone?

+ beside my lappy.

45. are u wearing glasses now?

+ nope. I'm wearing contact lenses

46. Are you missing anyone at the moment?

+ totally! yee ye ..

47. Did you take a nap today?

+ yeah, this afternoon

48. How many hours of sleep did you get last night?

+ 5 hours!

56. Do you support your friends?

+ not really

57. Could you handle being in the military?

+ no way, im too fat to run!

58. Are you hungry or thirsty?

+ im craving of sumthing sweett.

59. Favorite ice cream flavor?

+ Mint!

62. Do you own a camera phone?

+ yup.

63. Ever had to take a diagnostic test?

+ huh?

68. Do you have a photo hosting site that you use?

+ photobucket

69. Last place you were at?

+ unisel's library

70. What is your current mood?

+ stress

75. Do you have any regrets?

+ lotsalot.

76. what are you doing?

+ trying my hard to finish up this assgnment

81. Favorite food?

+ cannot think of one

82.what was the lastest movie you watch?

+ taken

86. How is the weather today?

+ its raining outside im crying inside

87. Do you e-mail?

+ nope!

88. Last thing you ate?

+ nasi koret2

89. a girl/boy?
+ a fat girl

jst sharing.

remember my bf used to said dat having 'S' with me was no longer interesting to him?
Guess wat.
I went back to my hometown last weekend.
We met, We fought, I cried, He pissed off and blablabla.
But just during the nyte, he will act nicely to me.
Just because he wanted me to blow him.
Because of the fought dat we had, the tears dat i've been wasting for him, and the heartache dat im suffering from, so i decided to not to blow him.
I didnt reject him purposely, it just dat i'm too damn sad and i'm too damn hurt for dat fcking thingy.
and the phrase dat, 'having sex with you was no longer interesting to me' keeps resound in my head.

......
............
................

his first trial is on our anniversary, 1st day we met. I reject.
Second trial, the next day, also the same. Rejcted.
Third trial, haha, the next day. He was rejected also and I really pissed him off.
Hahaha.
He yelled at me, but deep inside im laughing like hell!!
ahaha, to me, he looks so cute at ddat time even though he was shouting at me.
Then, I went back to KL.....
But the funny thing is..
After his 3trials were rejected, we no longer fighting, argue and so on. But its for now la.
bsok2, aku taktau.
And since he was rejected, he became so fucking damn nice to me.
Idk. I just love him when he's like this, i mean ryte now when he being so nice to me.
I love him.
Why cant he treat me like this, everyday, every minute, every second?
I think, in order for me to be treated well by him, i need to ignore his sex needs.
haha
pdn muuke.
tp die sgt comel mlm itu. n i wont forget dat..
;)

stupidity kills

malam hari tu, bersamaan sabtu malam minggu, bersamaan 21st of march 2009,
aku pegi jumpe my-so-called ex-bf.
Argh, macam sial.
I dun him anymore.
Not a lil' bit, Not at all!
Jijik disgusting and so on.
So fcking annoyed with him, huh.
Bnci gyle, tak bole blah.
ngantok ah.
zzzzzzzzz..
to be continued...

Not-so-big Anniversary

20th March 2009,
Our monthly anniversary.

haapy 47th months anniversary.

What A Day

hurm..
Where to start?
Let me start with unanswered test paper.
haha. tak boleh jawap gitu lorh.
bangun pagi2, mandi air sejuk2, bawak kete yg baru dicuci HuJAn2 , haih.
as soon as i arrived, as soon as the paper is in my hand, i couldnt answer the Question, which are not so tough actually, it just that i dun read and as a result, no answers!
ahah.
Okay, lets move on with the Caunselling session. Can u believe dat i have to go to the counselling unit becoz my name was reported as the problematic student, stressed student or wat so fucking ever.
ahah, i have to sacrifice my sleeping time, just to go to dat fucking stupid counselling session, pantek betol.
I dun need help, not from a counsellor of course!
Now, proceed with the presentation.
The lecturer came in, with the mood swing, and it get my nerves on.
however, i did quite well in that presentation, :) clap clap clap!

After finished the class, me n few of my bitches decided to have dinner at 'BIGGLASS' haha, before dat, me and Alin wnt to bank to withdrawl money. as soon as we arrive at CIMB bank, the full already full of banglas. haha, with the so fucking great smell!! sangat smelly ok. then, i decided to go t0 ambank, sbb dah tak boleh blah dgn bau yg melanda. smp je ambank, same problem. mamat bangla berator sikit punye ramai dan mencucuk duit dgn sikit punye lame sehingga aku perlu mengeluarkan suare sumbang aku, "Excuse me, make it fast please!!"
Kesian kat bangla tu, im not being selfish, tp ko dah lame gile kot. My armpits strted to get wet just waiting for them to wthdrawl the money. I'm wearing Kurung some more!

Dahlah tu, enough about that.
lepas je amek duit, aku teros 'berdessuupp' pegi kedai makan tu.
Sampai je kat kedai makan, aku memparking kete, unfortunately.... "belepupps" bunyik tu kedengaran..
guess wat, tayar kete aku dah terbenam! GREAT!
even greater takde org pon nak tolong.
so aku dan kawan2 pon mengeluarkan la tenaga jantan kitorang utk menolak kenderaan itu..dan akhirnya kami berjaya.
kete aku sngt jijik condition die skarang ni. haih..

hum.
besok..
aku balek johor.
taktaula aku happy ke tak sbenanenye nak balek jb.
happy ke tak happy?
sbenanye..more to takot..
takot nak jmp die. ;(
well, i planned to meet my ex this weekend;P
tatau la jadi ketak.
everything depends on him, kalo die nak pegi..jadi.
kalo tak, tak jadi.

ape lg aku nak tulis?
jantung aku skrang..

dupdapdupdap..

sehari suntuk aku tak call 'dia' and aku tak msg die.
skarang ni..tgh dupdap tatau nak call ke tak.
die just call n msg me, once!
nak cal ke tanak?
humm.
ntahlah..
Tanak kot!
tanak ah.
nanak!
dah la..
lagi byk aku tulis pasal die, aku jd lagi nervous..
grrr...
hehehe.
chowwwwwwwwwtut.

cause tonite will be the nyte dat i will...

ahah.
wat i will write here, has nothing to do with the topic.
haha,
now, 2.23a.m, 17th of march 2009 which is my so-called-fren bfday.
though i hate her n we r no longer frens, but i still remmber her bfday cause im the type of person who alywas remmber sum1's bfday.

i just finished up one of my 5 assgnments! clap clap clap!
hhaha, wpun baru satu siap, but at least, i make an effort to do it. :)

im sleepy, but my ass hurting.
i often have this problem and theres nothng i can do about it.
oh my..
my eyes r gettng smaller n smaller.
I need to rest them i guess.

i need to get a pretty sleep.
i hav a morning class tomorow, 830 am again!
presentation and test r waiting for me tomorow.

aku tak bace pape pon.
PIKIRKAN BOLEH!!
MALAYSIA BOLEH!

Chow.
Tut!
hehe
if u noe wat i mean.

bila kebosanan melanda diri.

car thingy tiada motif

This is myself.

The one and only me.

U wont find me sumwhere else.

I'm fat

I'm annoying

My bf hates me

I'm full of fat deposits and cellulites

I am here just sharing my pain with the world

Cause I cant stand to keep it by myself

shh...

Just got back from a long-boring-lethargic class, yeay!
Im planning of washing my car, but i think its going to rain.
so aku cancel niat aku, n i start blogging!
well, assignments still undone.
hoho.
i miss my ex.
argh..
ive been haunting by his fucking face..damn it.

ryte now, my bf has been treating me so badly,
so i feel like coming back to my ex.
i feel like throwing myself to him ;)
feel like hugging n kissing him, againnnnnnn!!!!
huwaaaaaaaaa..

i text him last nite, unfortunately.. no reply!
ahah, i malu ok!
malu malu malu.
rindu rindu rindu.

if i can turn back time.....

bile nak buat assgnment ni???
huuuu....

keheningan.

now is 2.38a.m.
and i'm still lying here, blogging, sharing the shit with the world.
i got a morning class tmorow, at 830a.m, wehu!
means i only have couples of hours to sleep.
i thnk im addicted to internet. i hav lotsa assgnments waiting for me to finish them up, but im just ignoring them. and i keep onlining, blogging, myspace-ing, stalking ppl's pages, i dun even cared about the assgnments though the deadline just around the corner.
huh.
ape nak jadi?
haih.
i've been yawning since the past 2hours, tp aku still tak tdo2 gak.
besok class Madam Katiphah. My Indian-wannabe-lecturer who loves to call her studs buffalo, donkey, stupid n so on.
Well, we are not buffalo, you buffalo~!
Malam yg sgt hening la kaedahnye..
Hujan yg sgt lebat..
Lpas melangsaikan 'nasi korek2' sepinggan, aku ngan kawn aku teros bergegas membeli burger and i finished it ryte away tanpa menunggu hari esok.
haha.
selepas bergadoh dgn si syaitun (this is wat i called my bf), selepas lipas berterbangan didalam bilek, selepas berwebcaming dgn rakan2, aku still lg mcm ni.
tak tido dan asgments still melmbak lambak.

Hum..
Last week, aku jumpe my ex-boy.
Not really my ex-boy, my ex-scandal i guess.
i dumped him 2years ago.
Dan hasilnya....
aku menyesal sehingga kni.
haha.
aku didalam mood yg gile bayang ni, tpi apakan daya.
die dah tak memandang aku lg dah.
lepas aku hantar die balek hari tu, aku teros Jiwa Kacau.
How can he be soo handsome?? *sigh*
kenapelah aku bodoh sgt tgglkan die dulu2?
tapi..
lepas aku pikir dan pikir dan pikir. i finally found the answers.
aku tgglkan die dulu..sbb die...
humm..
first of all sbb die takde education.
2nd, sbb takde career.
3rd sbb die takde duit.
aku bukan memilih, but to me, in looking for a guy, education is the most important thing. ;)
aku tanak dapat bakal suami yg lagi 'sengal' drpd aku.
aku nk bakal suami aku, yg bole bimbing aku.
someone dat i can refers to when i need to ask sumthing.
tp die, haih. tak bole.
tapi..
takde org yg boleh calm me down like he do.
he's a very gud listener. very very gud listener.
he always there when i need him. but not for now la.
aku rase pon de dah ade org lain.
takkan la die nak tggu aku for the rest of his life kot?
but, past few days, die ckp kat aku, "leave your bf and come to me".

how can i leave my bf if luv him so fucking hell much?
not to be materialistic but he got everything, career, money, car, brain, EVERYTHING!

But, he dun treat me well.


Argh, dah.
Seblom Jiwakacau aku bertambah parah, aku rase. baik aku stop kat sini.
i need to sleep ar memandangkan jam pon dah pukol 2.54a.m. :0

I'll be posting more, soon.
Adios.

sadness

im such a dumbo, im stupido.
being rejected for alomst hundred times, but still i am, here, keep waiting for him to luv me like he used to.
I was a fool for him, i was a bitch to him. and still, im wanting him.
i was unappreciated, he's taking me for granted.
i've been ignored by him.



RELEASE ME!


is dat the best phrase for me to say to him? i dun think so. cause later on, i'm the one who'll be crying like hell. and he dont even care if i leave him.

idk, maybe its my fault coz im hanging on too long.
i should have left him years ago.
But im not strong enuf to do dat.
coz to me, he's everything dat i've ever wanted in my life. and leaving him, will be the stupidest thing dat ever crossed in my mind.

though i am soo damn and absofuckinglutely stupid in his eyes, but i still want and love him.
i'll be waiting, till God noes when.

loving you equals to im hurting myself so badly. but i want ur luv so foolishly. ;(

love me like u used to love me.
im missing those parts of our life, im missing u, dear.

what a day.

he text me, he said dat he's already in KL.
but he didnt mention whether he wanted to see me or not, hey i lived in KL u bloodyfool!
dunt u wanna meet me?

he singing in to YM just now.
we had a talk, and he said to me, "lose your weight!"
and i replied, "im not gonna get any skinny, so, make ur decision"
he replied, "fine, we're done!"

so i guess, we are done.
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the tales of bruised heart.

today is 15th of march 2oo9; its the 3rd years, 9months, 3 weeks and 2 days of our relationship.
and i have been serving my body for him for the past 3years and 3month.
and today.. wat makes me fell like crying, after 3years of serving the body, he finally told me that having sex with me was no longer interesting to him.
yeah, it kills me.
nak nanges..
huuu..
lepas 3 thn, 9 bulan, 3 minggu, 2 ari....
benda ni yg ko balas kat akuu???
napelah hidop ni kejam sggt??
my lord..
haih..
i gave him all i have, even my virginity!!
damn him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!