keheningan.

now is 2.38a.m.
and i'm still lying here, blogging, sharing the shit with the world.
i got a morning class tmorow, at 830a.m, wehu!
means i only have couples of hours to sleep.
i thnk im addicted to internet. i hav lotsa assgnments waiting for me to finish them up, but im just ignoring them. and i keep onlining, blogging, myspace-ing, stalking ppl's pages, i dun even cared about the assgnments though the deadline just around the corner.
huh.
ape nak jadi?
haih.
i've been yawning since the past 2hours, tp aku still tak tdo2 gak.
besok class Madam Katiphah. My Indian-wannabe-lecturer who loves to call her studs buffalo, donkey, stupid n so on.
Well, we are not buffalo, you buffalo~!
Malam yg sgt hening la kaedahnye..
Hujan yg sgt lebat..
Lpas melangsaikan 'nasi korek2' sepinggan, aku ngan kawn aku teros bergegas membeli burger and i finished it ryte away tanpa menunggu hari esok.
haha.
selepas bergadoh dgn si syaitun (this is wat i called my bf), selepas lipas berterbangan didalam bilek, selepas berwebcaming dgn rakan2, aku still lg mcm ni.
tak tido dan asgments still melmbak lambak.

Hum..
Last week, aku jumpe my ex-boy.
Not really my ex-boy, my ex-scandal i guess.
i dumped him 2years ago.
Dan hasilnya....
aku menyesal sehingga kni.
haha.
aku didalam mood yg gile bayang ni, tpi apakan daya.
die dah tak memandang aku lg dah.
lepas aku hantar die balek hari tu, aku teros Jiwa Kacau.
How can he be soo handsome?? *sigh*
kenapelah aku bodoh sgt tgglkan die dulu2?
tapi..
lepas aku pikir dan pikir dan pikir. i finally found the answers.
aku tgglkan die dulu..sbb die...
humm..
first of all sbb die takde education.
2nd, sbb takde career.
3rd sbb die takde duit.
aku bukan memilih, but to me, in looking for a guy, education is the most important thing. ;)
aku tanak dapat bakal suami yg lagi 'sengal' drpd aku.
aku nk bakal suami aku, yg bole bimbing aku.
someone dat i can refers to when i need to ask sumthing.
tp die, haih. tak bole.
tapi..
takde org yg boleh calm me down like he do.
he's a very gud listener. very very gud listener.
he always there when i need him. but not for now la.
aku rase pon de dah ade org lain.
takkan la die nak tggu aku for the rest of his life kot?
but, past few days, die ckp kat aku, "leave your bf and come to me".

how can i leave my bf if luv him so fucking hell much?
not to be materialistic but he got everything, career, money, car, brain, EVERYTHING!

But, he dun treat me well.


Argh, dah.
Seblom Jiwakacau aku bertambah parah, aku rase. baik aku stop kat sini.
i need to sleep ar memandangkan jam pon dah pukol 2.54a.m. :0

I'll be posting more, soon.
Adios.